The Climb

In Northern Ontario, there is a series of Mesa's that were formed by by erosion. It is known to have steep cliffs, that are among the highest in Ontario. It has been named one of the Seven Wonders of the World!

One Ojibway legend identifies the giant as Nanabijou, who was turned to stone when the secret location of a rich silver mine now known as Silver Islet was disclosed to white men.

We chose to climb the Head Trail - 16.2 KM round trip, with the last 1.4 KM the steepest climb! This trail takes you to the summit of the head of the Sleeping Giant, and the views are absolutely incredible! But let's go back to the beginning!

We began our hike on a warm early afternoon. As we walked down the trail, there were hills and valleys, surrounded by the lush green forest and enchanting natural streams. We walked for about an hour, enjoying each others company. I focused on the beauty, and honouring the connection with my body. I felt my muscles come alive, and my heart sing!

We stopped a few times along the trail, and one spot in particular took my breath away. There were interior camp sites and a beautiful stone beach along the shores of Sawyer Bay. I admired my man, as he skipped rocks in the water. I closed my eyes and gave thanks for this soulmate connection and mused what it will be like to watch him teach our children to skip rocks. The water was so clear, and so blue, I felt like I was in a post card.

We continued along the trail, and we came across a baby bird who had

fallen from it's nest. We moved it to a mossy tree. I sent a prayer that this beautiful baby would be protected and safe. I wished him luck, and that his Mamma would find him. (I am sad to say that little bird crossed over the rainbow bridge.)

We got to the part of the trail that begun the ascension, the steepest 1.4 KMS. I was hot, I was tired. My muscles were fatigued, but I remained focused on the foot ahead of me. There were times I needed to stop and catch my breath. My heart was pounding out of my chest. My head tried to tell me that I couldn't do it, that I should just turn around. Wait for the others at the bottom. But my heart whispered, "Go on, we can do this." The "Little Engine that Could" began to mantra in my head "I think I can, I think I can", over and over again. We stopped for some water and I sat down. I looked up and thought "this better be worth it." We continued on, and there were times I dropped to my hands and knees to climb up. I remember saying "Quitting isn't an option, I am resilient, I am determined." I didn't give up on myself, no matter how hard it got, and I made it to the top.

I immediately snapped a picture of my man with our dogs, and reveled in how blessed I was to be able to share such a beautiful experience with not only him, but his parents as well.

The view was incredible, but the cliff was extremely high. My fear kicked in. His mom wanted a picture of me, but my fear was like "Fuck no, this is not happening. Sit your ass down." So I sat. Finally, she convinced me to go farther on the ledge, and my heart taunted my fear. I pretended to fly like a bird, and then I did a crane pose.

His mom said "Look at B." I turned to look, thinking he wanted a picture. To my utter shock, surprise and dumbfoundedness, he was down on one knee, with a ring in his hand! To say I cried would be an understatement. I couldn't believe my eyes, and I asked him if he was joking 2 seperate times. I of course said YES!!!! Oh my Goddess, we are ENGAGED!!!! I hugged him so tight and as my heart was so happy, my brain was like "Whoa wait, is this real?"

As I sit here today, a week later, I still have moments where I glimpse my ring and cry. I dreamed about this kind of love. I watched Rom-coms and wished for this kind of love. I went through hell, to learn the lessons, to calibrate to this kind of love. And now I have it. We manifested eachother, and even though I knew I would spend my life with this man, I feel more bonded to him than ever before.

He proposed with a Black Onyx ring, which is so special and unique to me. Black Onyx is amazing for healing old wounds from the past, encourages happiness and good fortune, absorbs and transforms negative energy and helps in productivity and decision making - all qualities I desire to carry with me into our marriage. Also the added protection from negative energies truely helps as an Empath!

We sat on the rock cliff, admiring the beauty and enjoyed a glass of wine with his parents. His dad said something about a "right choice" and in that hug, I felt so loved and accepted for who I really am. The welcoming into this family is something that feels like a homecoming.

I always dreamed of being a wife and a mother. At 35 years of age, I am finally on my way! My place is HERE, in this soulmate relationship, and I can feel the energy buzzing inside of me, the expansion bursting at the seams. The opportunity to THRIVE because I am fully supported by the Universe.

The climb down was extreme, and fear kicked in again. I took my time, often going down on my butt. His mom coached me through my fear, and the gratitude I feel for her is profound.

This climb taught me many things:

1. Nature is beautiful and has an order to events that may not make sense at the time, but do in the bigger picture!

2. The most breathtaking views and experiences occur after the hardest climb!

3. Your body is capable of anything, it is your brain that needs convincing!

4. The accomplishment is more powerful, when you decide who you want to be and how you want to remember it!

5. Don't give up! It is OK to go slower than others, take breaks and ask for help. But giving up? Nah, that's not an option.

6. Decide to be all in, no matter what, for as long as it takes, because in the climb is where you learn the most!

The magic of this place can be felt, as simply as closing your eyes and feeling the air on your skin. During our stay, I felt the magic compound through my veins. I had harmony restored, and became clear on the path I am on. I followed my intuition on every turn. I remained present and connected to my body, in a way I haven't been able to before. This is just the start of my fairy tale, and I am so excited to share with you every experience of it!